Quieting the Disquiet- A Response to the one I love

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I still want to float into a flowery dreamland

But 

All I have is hurt

A pain that hurts my skin, my nails, my hair and

The bottom of my sole

It makes me want to stay in a pile

Instead

My looks like that of a mad woman

Consumed in the fury

The anger

It makes me pull my hair and knit it

into angry little knots

The knots drop into my chest 

And I am choking 

with painful tears!!

It is the disquiet-

It makes me awake

Sweaty with nightmares

My skin pale

I want to run, that my feet would hurt and not my heart

Disquiet beating heart

Wanting to scream and tear gates 

of tears 

and blood

Pain

I am hurt and I want to scream

My guts out

That my ears deafen

That, for a moment

I will forget 

I live in a world with people

Who breathe

Who shake the earth as they move

Who sing in dance

Which world is that?

And the disquiet 

Makes me awake

For my questions remain unanswered

The frenzy in it!!

This is my letter to you

This is where you left me

Even flowers turn into monstrous frost

Cold and white

Just like my heart.

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